What my OCD feels like (metaphor)

This post is inspired by Goldie’s  Mental Health at work post,  but also by me touching a broken glass this morning.
I only realized its state when I saw a puddle of blood on the kitchen counter.

It was a tiny cut on my finger and it didn’t hurt.
But the blood kept on flowing.
It was also now on my favorite white shirt, on the dough I was kneading and basically anything else I touched.

I started washing my shirt, but the stain didn’t come out.
I had to mix another sticky dough, which is never a fun task.
And even after I thought I cleaned everything I touched, I saw a dark red spot everywhere.
Out of desperation I started crying.
I already knew then that this was going to be a wasted day.

That’s basically what my OCD feels like.
Very tiny things that shouldn’t bother me, cause great distractions and emotional outburst.

I get impatient and end up not doing things according to my own rules, which results in doing the whole routine again. Just like my dough. 
Even when I consider to “just forget about it and tomorrow is another day”, I get reminded by it. Just like that dark red spot of blood.

My OCD is everywhere and tiny things remind me of it, unfortunately.

P.S.
I try sometimes challenge my with metaphors.

I previously did this in my post Was the view worth the climb? (Rescheduled post 10-2017).
Have you ever written a story with a metaphor or are going to?
Let me know in the comments and please link your post 🙂 

15 thoughts on “What my OCD feels like (metaphor)

  1. Wow. You did great, Andrea. I think having an OCD is a handful, but you are a strong person and just by reading this post, it only makes me admire you more because you are using this condition to write something so amazing. Fighting!

  2. I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry as I read this post. I had something similar happen to me a couple of weeks back – the recipe I was making was missing an ingredient/step. I only realized that too far into the process. I blew up. The rage I had was unbelievable. No one could help me. Everything was ruined. After a while I decided to improvise, and I saw that the recipe was updated after I printed out the version with a mistake. In the end, it mostly worked out, but I was livid and anyone in my path was “dead”.
    I like metaphors. I use them in my posts every now and then.

  3. It’s crazy right?
    How small things can give so much emotions.
    I have noticed myself getting more and more angry over such little things. And that’s even worse than sad.

    I agree. Metaphors are the best.

  4. I’ve used metaphors before to describe my anxiety. The one I remember most was from an old post I wrote about how attempting to fight the instinct of feeling anxious is like trying to walk across a sturdy bridge without holding the railing even if I know nothing bad will happen if I let go and walk without gripping something. This is a double fear for me since I am scared of heights, so in the few past instances where I’ve gone across a bridge where there is almost no chance that I will fall through the flooring to my death, I still trekked every step as if it was going to be my last. 😣

  5. Small things get to me too sometimes. I try to remind myself that I am human and I also use your line… “Tomorrow is another day!”

    Great post and I like the metaphor. You are creative and determined I see. So… don’t let the little things bring you down. Work around them because what you offer is great and it should not be stopped because of “a bad day”.

    I also try my best to practice this preaching so I know it is easier said than done but you are strong and you can push past whatever gets in your way. 🤗

  6. Just one thing about your blog: I think you have disabled the comment section.
    I don’t know if it’s on purpose, but otherwise you can change this in the settings 🙂

  7. Your old posts still don’t seem to have enabled comments.
    To do that, you can go back to the editing window and check “enable comments” at the bottom of the settings menu.

  8. OCD is really terrible! I have been having since I was probably 7.
    I will follow you, I am always interested in reading about other people’s experiences with OCD!

  9. Thank you so much! It really is terrible, I’m going to be putting up posts talking about my OCD further, I just need my brain to allow me to get focused, I was diagnosed as a child too 😦

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