I grew up in family where most topics remained topic until I would figure them out myself. Most likely, that would be during a panic attack.
During the start of my first period ever, I thought I was bleeding to death.
When my mum confirmed that that was not going to be case, I knew I would most definitely die of pain.
My monthly occasions have always been a little intense than for most women.
Most people who were in the neighborhood when it happened ended up calling the ambulance. Sometimes I would “wake up” in the hospital.
It annoyed me that others decided for me that I was going to expect a big, fat hospital bill.
But I couldn’t blame them much either.
It always started with intense pain, throwing up and hyperventilation.
Continuing in cold sweat and losing consciousness.
What else to do with a pale rag doll lying there, not being able to move.
It happened at work, in the shops, at the movies, at the first day of school.
Doctors usually shrug their shoulders and recommended “the pill”.
My family was firmly against any hormonal addition which was more than God required for me.
So I continued another 10 years of suffering and hospital visits.
Until the point I start my driving lessons.
I realized that spending all this money on driving lessons would be useless if it would be too dangerous to drive.
All the stories people told me about the pill, scared me.
But I didn’t gain weight because of the pill, chocolate did that.
I didn’t get moody because of the pill, bullying colleagues did that.
But it did take away all the pain.
That small, but effective pill was my life saver.
And it confirmed itself yesterday.
This month, as an experiment, I didn’t take the pill.
Some time around 13:00 o’ clock, I started feeling it.
That nagging pain.
I had to get out of the office.
Luckily it wasn’t busy on the road.
I felt the hyperventilation and the cold sweat.
I’m not sure how I made it to my hotel room, but I fell on the floor.
I grabbed my coat to throw up on that instead of the fancy carpet.
I woke up about an hour later.
Never again, such an experiment.
What are you experiences with the pill?