In my early 20’s I befriended a 10 year older Polish lady.
She had a classy clothing style. Walked around in high heels to expand her long legs.
Had beautiful long, blonde hair. And applied just the right amount of make up.
Plus, she was extremely funny and intelligent too.
We didn’t see like the type of people who would be friends.
I am short and wore sneakers. My hair would be in a messy ponytail and I wouldn’t wear anything other than a simple pants and a stripe shirt.
But, somehow we had that “click” 😉
One day we browsed through her old photos.
She got a mirror out of her handbag, held it in front of her face and looked disappointed.
“Oh Andrea”, she said , “what have I done to myself?”.
I told her to quit the non-sense. In my eyes, she hadn’t changed one bit.
“Just make sure you will never have to tell this to yourself“, she told me.
I wasn’t worried at that time.
I was in the gym every day.
In the summer I would watermelon for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
In the winter, I ate Jalapenos which would make me drink a lot of water.
I felt energetic and happy about my life.
It showed in my appearance too. My skin and hair were of its best quality and my body was in shape.
3 years after I went through a couple of years where all this positive energy disappeared.
I was bullied at my job.
I felt lonely and had no future perspective.
I wasn’t going to the gym. Didn’t drink water. Ate unhealthy food.
And unfortunately, that showed too in my appearance.
Recently I joined the gym again.
I felt optimistic about and thought I would continue with where I left a couple of years back.
I’m nearly coughing up a lung after 10 minutes on the machines.
Yesterday, I decided I would do Zumba.
In my “gym-years” I did Zumba 4 times a week.
It’s a fun exercise and I knew the basics.
What could possibly go wrong.
There I was.
In front of a big ass mirror when the music started.
I was shocked with what I saw.
This was how I looked? This is how dance?
The confrontation with myself was HUGE.
I remembered the words from my Polish friend.
What have I done to myself.
I feel disappointed.
There is a long way to go back to the shape I was in.
But, I did back then. I can do it again 😉